You are being too hard on yourself. I don’t think you failed. I think you learned a lot of lessons most people don’t learn in college and that hard work and lessons will serve you well. Also, you should be very proud that you have a job. This economy is terrible. Also, a small firm doesn’t mean a worse job. It often means you have more chances to learn because you are trusted with more responsibility. You can still be CEO or CFO by 30-35. You are only 22 you have your whole life ahead of you. Trust me the people who landed jobs at global firms will most likely hate their jobs or leave after two years. People getting masters degrees are probably just trying to escape the real world for longer. No one is doing better than you trust me the grass is always greener on the other side until you are in the other side. Also, you are only 22. The fact that you lived away from home and worked two jobs and went to school is actually very impressive. Also don’t worry about girls. The right one will love you for who you are. Right now just focus on loving yourself because you are far too mean to yourself. Congrats on graduating you have a bright future ahead!